So this morning I had oral surgery so I am not allowed by my doctors to do very much for about 24 hours, which frankly stinks because other than a little pain I feel fine. I was really hungry after the anaesthesia wore off so my mom and sisters made me some soup although it didn't taste to good because I cant have anything hot so we had to let it cool down first and soup just isn't soup when its cold. So for dinner my dad and Cayla went to the store and bought me instant potatoes because the rest of my family was having chicken potpie. Dad was half-way done with his dinner when I finally asked if he could make me some potatoes when he was finished and Cayla said she would make me some well awhile later I was still hungry and there weren't any potatoes made so I asked again and I guess it was the wrong time to ask cause dad got upset and yell saying "Yes I will make the stupid potatoes now!" Which made me feel like I was being a burden because I couldn't make them myself and someone had to stop what they were doing just to make my food. I hate feeling like I am being a burden to anyone at all it feels horrible, so I try harder to do everything myself so I'm not a burden and end up failing and be more of a burden then ever. So, what I have learned today is that I can't do everything myself and this goes along with my relationship with God too, I have to let him take control I can't do everything myself and I will fail if I try to! I realize that my dad wasn't angry at me for asking and he wasn't angry that he had to make the potatoes he was upset that the kids weren't obey and I had just added to his load.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Friday, November 21, 2008
Characters
Okay so I have just recently decided to write a book. I figure the best way to get feedback on it and if I should continue to finish writing it or if i should just stop right now is to write it in a blog and let people comment on it. Here it is!
Running, that's all she ever did then a problem came up these days. She could hear Brett behind her getting closer, if ever she could disappear now would be the time. "Jackelyn", he yelled, "I just want to talk about it. Don't make this hard, just hand it over and I will go." Yeah right, she thought, like she would ever just hand it over to him. There, through the branches, she caught a glimpse of the reason she had headed this way in the first place. The branches were just low enough here, she could climb fast. Her whole plan was hinged on this moment, whether or not she had enough time to get far enough up the tree before Brett came around the bend and saw her. Grabbing the lowest branch, she heaved herself up and stood on it grabbing the next branch, she worked quickly, pulling her body up to the spot where two branches forked and she was hidden. Just in time, there was Brett below looking this way and that, wondering where she had gone. "Jackelyn," he yelled again, " I know you can hear me! I can't believe my grandfather gave it to you for safe keeping instead of me." He got quiet. "Jackie please." She could barely stand it when he got all quiet and said her name like that, the way that meant I am sorry, please forgive me, I still love you. It made her want to give him everything, because she was still in love with him. Oh no, not this time! She'd had enough, he was not the same guy who had written love notes to her in high school. She did not know this person below her and she was not giving him what he wanted, no matter what he said or how he said her name! Then it happened, the moment she had feared would come, but that she prayed would not. He looked up, "Ah, there you are Jackie." She closed her eyes, as he continued, " I knew I would find you, you never were good at playing hide and seek.
So, this part is like the prelude or something. It's like the thing on the back of the book or on the inside flap that gets you interested in the book. Haha well let me know what you think please!
Running, that's all she ever did then a problem came up these days. She could hear Brett behind her getting closer, if ever she could disappear now would be the time. "Jackelyn", he yelled, "I just want to talk about it. Don't make this hard, just hand it over and I will go." Yeah right, she thought, like she would ever just hand it over to him. There, through the branches, she caught a glimpse of the reason she had headed this way in the first place. The branches were just low enough here, she could climb fast. Her whole plan was hinged on this moment, whether or not she had enough time to get far enough up the tree before Brett came around the bend and saw her. Grabbing the lowest branch, she heaved herself up and stood on it grabbing the next branch, she worked quickly, pulling her body up to the spot where two branches forked and she was hidden. Just in time, there was Brett below looking this way and that, wondering where she had gone. "Jackelyn," he yelled again, " I know you can hear me! I can't believe my grandfather gave it to you for safe keeping instead of me." He got quiet. "Jackie please." She could barely stand it when he got all quiet and said her name like that, the way that meant I am sorry, please forgive me, I still love you. It made her want to give him everything, because she was still in love with him. Oh no, not this time! She'd had enough, he was not the same guy who had written love notes to her in high school. She did not know this person below her and she was not giving him what he wanted, no matter what he said or how he said her name! Then it happened, the moment she had feared would come, but that she prayed would not. He looked up, "Ah, there you are Jackie." She closed her eyes, as he continued, " I knew I would find you, you never were good at playing hide and seek.
So, this part is like the prelude or something. It's like the thing on the back of the book or on the inside flap that gets you interested in the book. Haha well let me know what you think please!
Saturday, November 8, 2008
End of Times
I have been thinking lately about when Jesus is going to come again and what brings this coming about. Now I like writing about topics that I am still exploring myself so feel free to comment on what I am saying! I do not know everything and you may see something a different way then I did that will give more in site into that topic.
So, I was reading in the book of Revelations on my way to a harvest party and I was having a discussion with my mom on the end times. As I was reading out of my backpack bible to my mom I had a thought about one of the passages it was in chapter 12 verses 13-16 if you are going to read it I recommend reading the whole chapter or you may get confused. It says " 13 when the dragon (Satan) saw that he had been hurled to the earth, he pursued the woman who had given birth to the male child. 14 The woman was given two wings of a great eagle, so that she might fly to the place prepared for her in the desert, where she would be taken care of for a time, times and a half a time, out of the serpents reach. 15 Then from his mouth the serpent spewed water like a river, to over take the woman and sweep her away with the torrent. 16 But the earth helped the woman by opening its mouth and swallowing the river that the dragon had spewed out of his mouth." When I read that last part I had the thought that the earth opening up was how the Grand Canyon was made. My mom said that I was probably just being silly but I really think that it is a possibility.
I was also reading in chapter 13 and in verse 5 it says " The beast was given a mouth to utter proud words and blasphemies and to exercise his authority for forty-two months." My mom stated the fact that forty-two months is equal to four years, which I thought is also how long the president is in office before he has to apply for re-election. I was a bit disturbed when I heard that the people in other country's where dancing and chanting Obama's name through out their streets when he was elected. That coupled with verses 7 & 8 of chapter 13 have me wondering when the time will come? They state, " He was given power to make war against the saints and to conquer them. And he was given authority over every tribe, people, language and nation. 8 All inhabitants of the earth will worship the beast - all whose names have not been written in the book of life belonging to the Lamb that was slain from the creation of the world." I know that the end of times is not going to be brought about by just one person like a lot of people have said and thought. Yes it starts out as one person but it quickly will be more than just one if you read on in Revelations you will read about another beast that promotes the first beast.
I realize that when Jesus comes back and the tribulation is over we will be with him and everything will be new and beautiful. But I struggle with thoughts of what I want and if he comes back right now what I would not get to have. Because I want to graduate and get married, build my ranch and have kids. But those are all what I want, not me saying what ever your will is God have your way. I have a hard time telling God he can have his way in my life and relinquishing hold on stuff in my life. I apologize if this is all a mess and you have a hard time reading it. I have decided to just write down my thoughts and right now they are pretty jumbled up so this may reflect my thoughts. Well this is it my thoughts on the matter.
So, I was reading in the book of Revelations on my way to a harvest party and I was having a discussion with my mom on the end times. As I was reading out of my backpack bible to my mom I had a thought about one of the passages it was in chapter 12 verses 13-16 if you are going to read it I recommend reading the whole chapter or you may get confused. It says " 13 when the dragon (Satan) saw that he had been hurled to the earth, he pursued the woman who had given birth to the male child. 14 The woman was given two wings of a great eagle, so that she might fly to the place prepared for her in the desert, where she would be taken care of for a time, times and a half a time, out of the serpents reach. 15 Then from his mouth the serpent spewed water like a river, to over take the woman and sweep her away with the torrent. 16 But the earth helped the woman by opening its mouth and swallowing the river that the dragon had spewed out of his mouth." When I read that last part I had the thought that the earth opening up was how the Grand Canyon was made. My mom said that I was probably just being silly but I really think that it is a possibility.
I was also reading in chapter 13 and in verse 5 it says " The beast was given a mouth to utter proud words and blasphemies and to exercise his authority for forty-two months." My mom stated the fact that forty-two months is equal to four years, which I thought is also how long the president is in office before he has to apply for re-election. I was a bit disturbed when I heard that the people in other country's where dancing and chanting Obama's name through out their streets when he was elected. That coupled with verses 7 & 8 of chapter 13 have me wondering when the time will come? They state, " He was given power to make war against the saints and to conquer them. And he was given authority over every tribe, people, language and nation. 8 All inhabitants of the earth will worship the beast - all whose names have not been written in the book of life belonging to the Lamb that was slain from the creation of the world." I know that the end of times is not going to be brought about by just one person like a lot of people have said and thought. Yes it starts out as one person but it quickly will be more than just one if you read on in Revelations you will read about another beast that promotes the first beast.
I realize that when Jesus comes back and the tribulation is over we will be with him and everything will be new and beautiful. But I struggle with thoughts of what I want and if he comes back right now what I would not get to have. Because I want to graduate and get married, build my ranch and have kids. But those are all what I want, not me saying what ever your will is God have your way. I have a hard time telling God he can have his way in my life and relinquishing hold on stuff in my life. I apologize if this is all a mess and you have a hard time reading it. I have decided to just write down my thoughts and right now they are pretty jumbled up so this may reflect my thoughts. Well this is it my thoughts on the matter.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Abortion
So, I have been reading this book, "Lord Foulgrins Letters" By Randy Alcorn and it's about these letters that a demon lord is writing to his demon lackey. In these letters he is describing to his lackey how to inhibit him from finding out about God and Angels. I have recently been thinking more about where I stand on important issues. So, when I came across this passage in the book that struck a chord in me about abortion. This is the demon Lord Foulgrin talking about people, ""Why are children killing children?" they cry out, as if this were some great mystery. I get such a laugh every time they ask. Millions of adults kill their smallest children every year just because it's convenient, while society self-righteously defends it. Gee, I wonder where these kids got the idea killing children is okay?" I believe this is a true statement about our society today. I believe that abortion is wrong, I believe that there are so many people who rant and rave and say that abortion is a women's right, that she should be able to choose if she wants the baby or not. Someone told me the other day that when a guy wants to give up his say in the life of the baby, that the mother has to release him from it, I am not sure if it true or not, but if it is true, then I believe that if the father of the baby does not want the mother to have an abortion he should have a say in the decision she makes. I am very passionate on the subject and I know that pro-choice people are passionate about their stand also. My speech teacher got me started on thinking about this she told the class to be prepared to have a debate sometime this semester and gave us three subjects she may have us debate on, this was one of them. So ever since I have been thinking and developing where I stand on these issues. These are my thoughts on the subject and how I feel, take them as you may, but they are mine.
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